I had days when I just wanted to lay in bed, wrapped in my blanket like a mummy while checking on his Facebook and crying to my heart’s content. I wanted to just disappear, skipped work and do nothing. Sadly, I couldn’t. I needed the money so I could do a lot of activities to fill the void that I had. But seriously, I had bills so I really needed to show up and finish my tasks with quality. Though to be honest, the quality of work I was producing suffered a little. I was behind schedule in my deliverable, always making excuses to my supervisor that I was still thinking of the best way to implement the process.
I talked to my friends who had devastating breakups before and they all agreed that phase was normal. Some of them even had to resign and just spent a lot of time with family or went away to travel and cleared their minds. There was a point in my life that the thought of accepting a job offer abroad and disappear like a bubble seemed enticing – to drop everything and just start anew.
As much as I wanted to, I knew I wasn’t ready to leave my company and my team. My colleagues, who I now call friends, have been the best. They understood what I was going through and they were always there to help me every step of the way. The one I was closest with, I remembered, told me, “Just show up at work. I got you. I just need you to show up no matter what. This is something that you should be thankful of. You’re earning without going to some place without Internet and what nots.”
There will be days when you just want to roll around your bed. The temptation of starting anew will dance in your mind endlessly. But always get up. Always choose to live life. Always choose to be thankful of what you already have instead of what you don’t have..yet. Show up at work, no matter what.
Remember, your career will never wake up one day and tell you it doesn’t love you anymore.