Travel to Coron – Update

I was able to buy a rountrip ticket for a cheap price and will push through, if God permits, on July 26 to August 2. That’s a one week trip and looking through my possible expenses, my accommodation will cost me a lot and I hope everything will result to something good. 

The real reason I’m going to Coron is that I need to talk to a certain someone. It’s not because I want to fix things with him but because I want to fix things with mine. 

And to tell you the truth, I’m scared. I feel like I’m exposing myself to the very thing I’m running away from. I feel like I’m the one inflicting pain and I have no idea how to heal it. 

But they said it’s better to know than never at all. So I’m going. No back-up plans. With limited budget. No expectations. I can’t even imagine how things will turn out. I could only pray and hope for the best. 

And I’m still scared. No matter how much I try to convince myself that I’ll be fine. I’m really scared. I feel like I’m gonna leave another piece of my heart in those islands. It frightens me to know that I’ll never be able to get it back. 

3 Comments Add yours

  1. Not trying to bum you out, but don’t expect too much from the trip. I did something like that a while back and it didn’t provide closure, it just prolonged the end, extended it needlessly, and in the end it wasn’t a healthy thing for me. Maybe it will be different for you, but just don’t expect too much. And take comfort in the fact that at least you’re not married and you don’t have to worry about finding money for an annulment. 🙂

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