So my Coron trip will be cancelled this Friday since I have a training that I need to get and an exam to pass during those dates, specifically July 11-13 and for the life of me, I could not think of other ways to figure out how I could still push this trip.
Aside from the regret of spending money on those tickets (though I got it in a very cheap price, which happens rarely!), I am also throwing away seven years of love and hate relationship – not that I’m still hoping that we could fix ‘us’ – but I wanted to fix myself more importantly, and just turn off from the world for a couple of days.
And then there’s also the tropical storms (three, all in all) and it’s been raining cats and dogs and I just want to cry because I know this is God saying ‘No, Kimi. You can’t go.’ As much as I want to push and check all the possibilities of going there – God, the universe, and everything in between – tells me not to. I can’t argue with that. This is total surrender on my part and I have nothing else to say. I will need to crawl back to my bed, cradle myself to sleep and sulk for the next two days.
Good bye seven years. Good bye solo backpacking in Coron. Good bye island cruising. Good bye solitary wandering. Good bye to my sanity. Just…ugh, good bye.
Wish me luck on my training and exam, hope I pass with flying colors!