I started going to my new job just this Monday and I was crying the night I went home.. in the train.. like a drama queen!
I just found out that my shift was changed to night as we needed to do knowledge transition from the US team and we need to catch up on their time. So I cried, because this wasn’t what I asked God – this is exactly what I didn’t want. I had to whine to Him on my quiet time, but He reassured me that I only see the “present”, but He gets to see everything, and He knows what He’s doing.
As what I’ve said before, this is a leap of faith – meaning, this is about trusting God and surrendering everything to Him. This is about having faith and claiming it, even though I haven’t seen it yet.
My first night as a night shiftee was really bad. I couldn’t concentrate. My body shook like crazy and I felt cold. I had to scram off by 5AM to get home immediately. I decided to take a cab as I don’t think I can walk further without my head cracking. To be awake for 18 hours, for the first time in a very long time, was really bad. The last time I spent almost 24 hours awake was in January, when a deployment went wrong. (Moving Mountains entry)
I didn’t eat breakfast, I just went to bed directly after changing. I woke up at around 3PM and I think the pattern was set now. I feel better tonight and it’s almost at the end of my shift. My prayer for now is that God will get me through this by giving me strength and the motivation to learn more. I’m learning so much, it’s like a whole new world, but I’m getting by. I’m so fascinated by the fact that I only know so little in technology. It feels like I was trapped in a bubble, and I only know what I knew. But now, I feel like there’s a lot more in this world. There’s a lot more in technology. It’s powerful. And it’s amazing, and I can’t wait to learn the business process, the new apps, the new horizon.
I asked my lead if I can have a 4PM – 1AM shift for two weeks, just enough time for my body to adjust. It’s like my world was turned upside down and I can’t afford to get sick at this time as I am still not allowed to get a sick leave or something, talk about probi issues. And he agreed. The team also wants to change the shift.
Anyway, I hope I’ll be able to catch up. All of them has almost the same background while I’m purely from a box, very specific to previous skill. I’ll ask some friends to teach me a thing or two about Microsoft apps and do some research myself as well.
Be a dear and pray for me!