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Hoho, what a day to immerse into God’s love and faithfulness!

I woke up pretty early today, given that this is a Sunday and service doesn’t start in 4 hours. I took a bath as I was sweating from all the heat ‘the’ great summer offers that even the fan in number three didn’t help. After a hearty breakfast, I waited for Cha-cha to arrive and we went directly to CCF-C5 to hear the Gospel through Nick Vujicic.

We were late and every nice seat was taken. I almost accepted the backrow seats where you couldn’t see anything except for the monitors on the wall that displayed the stage and I whispered to God that we need to find a good seat as it was Cha-Cha’s first CCF service, amazing how God answers ora mismo. As the usherette were telling us that there’s no more seat in the front, another usherette approached her and said, “You need two seats? TWO?” — I hurriedly said yes and she walked us to it. I was really glad that we were able to sit in those and I saw Pepay sitting on the other side just a few steps below us.

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After the praise and worship, we sat down and Nick Vujicic came up onstage. It’s overwhelming to know and see that he can flip the Bible without using his arms, and that God gave him a little foot in which he uses as his fingers. I think every person in that hall with a complete set of arms and legs should be ashamed enough that they do not open the Bible amid physical completeness.

Nick talked about how he was as a kid, how he struggled of being accepted in the society and how God showed him why he was made as such.

11 I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. 12 I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want.13 I can do all this through him who gives me strength. – Philippians 4:11-13

Day and night he would pray that God would give him arms and legs so he could be like everybody else, but God answered no. Because if he was given then, who would believe that Nick is God’s miracle? Who would believe that amid such incapability, he could travel the world and preach the Good news? Who would believe that amid suffering, he finds joy and peace and contentment with his wife, kid, family and God? If God had given him arms and legs, he would have been featured in the TV once and everyone would forget about him and what God did for him.

I think God just wants Nick to be a living testimony to everyone who has sufferings, who has pains, who has discontentment, and all things that hinders one person from experiencing God’s full love. Seeing Nick in flesh and hearing him made me realized that if Nick can offer so much with the absence of very important body parts, how much more can a person like me, with a complete set of body parts?

This isn’t about not having the right instruments, not having the right intellect, not having the money, not having the right connections that you will be able to do His mission, this is just about being still and trusting God that you do your best, and He will do the rest. Because what are we apart from Him who can give us everything?

As for me, this is the very reason why I gave up all those worldly acts – drinking and partying and even the ex-boyfriend. I’ve come to a moment where I stopped and asked myself, why was I drinking? Why was I partying? (See what the Bible says about such things.)

I was drinking because I enjoyed talking to my friends. But why do we need to drink to talk? Because we say things we don’t mean, we tell jokes from nowhere, we laugh at our friends’ slurred words and blurry vision.  Can’t I do it without drinking? Yeah, I thought to myself hesitantly. I can talk to friends with having a cup of coffee or a glass of mango shake. I can joke to friends without my lips smelling alcohol. I can laugh with my friends without us getting all drunk. Definitely, I can do the same without the alcohol. And why was I partying?

So I can dance, and with the influence of alcohol, I can dance without a care in the world. So people would see me and they would post status and photos in Facebook that we were having a blast dancing and drinking the night away because this is how life should be lived! No! We don’t own this life and our Creator are merciful and loving enough to give us the freedom to choose whether we enjoy life this way, or enjoy life His way. We don’t own this life. We were given it. And He could just take it away any minute without a warning. But God doesn’t do that, because we were also given freewill, to choose Him and not sin, or choose the other way and continue sinning with the thought that this is how life should be lived and enjoyed. We keep on refusing God’s gift because we think that accepting it would mean that we won’t belong to the people we once spent fun things with. It would mean that there will be a lot of limitations and that we won’t live our life to the fullest.

I thought the same. I even asked, wouldn’t it be unfair how we limit our lives because we followed God while the others are living life to the fullest and on their deathbed they would confess and repent and accept God? Wouldn’t it be unfair for us while they were partying and drinking and having fun, we were there being insulted, rebuked, laughed at and persecuted, and yet on their last breath, after doing everything and after giving them chances of repenting, they choose to repent on their very last day on earth? While we were struggling to keep ourselves from sinning, they were there in the open doing anything they want?

But as I asked and as I read the Bible, He convicted me that I shouldn’t feel bad, instead, I should be in joy for another brother or sister has turned away from the enemy and accepted the Lord; that these are trials for me to strengthen and mature my faith. The joy of knowing God is by far greater than the joy of finding happiness in temporary things. That peace? That peace everyone says whenever they preach? It’s true, no joke! There is a different happiness and contentment when you choose God over all the earthly things. There’s this different feeling, different joy that you don’t experience when partying and drinking and stuffs. When you wake up in the morning, you smile about last night’s party and how drunk you were, and then what, nothing, you’re empty again till the next party. In God’s arms, every second of your day, you are reminded how God loves you and how He would always be there for you that it overwhelms you so much it just reflects on your face.. on your life.

When you choose to live your life for Him, everything just changes, 360 degrees. You see problems and trials in a whole different way. You see light in darkness. You see hope and trust God that He will do something, and if not, He will give you a heart that understands and humbling in His presence. God gave us His only Son, His most precious Son, what else can He not give us? What else can He deny from us?

James 1:2-4 says, “Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.”

When we grab onto God’s joy, everyday will be “transformer” days. Day and night we will be like roads under construction. Imperfect as we may be, God will perfect us through our daily obstacles and struggles that we will grow and be blameless on the day He claims us. (1 Corinthians 1:7-8)

To be perfect….. don’t you feel excited? Because I am! 🙂

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