“Since we are receiving a Kingdom that is unshakeable, let us be thankful and please God by worshiping him with holy fear and awe. For our God is a devouring fire!” – Hebrews 12:28-29
Awhile ago, my friend and I had a dinner at megamall and we were talking about spiritual maturity. We aren’t new Christians, but we feel like we are. Maybe its because at this time, we can fully commit as servants to the Lord and to Him alone; unlike in college, we chose to conform to the world to win relationships in order to pass a subject or graduate in time.
When I graduated, Mom promised that I can do whatever I want; and committing to the Lord was my priority. I’d like to believe that I am where God wants me to be. You see, if I hadn’t chose Accenture, I wouldn’t be staying with Nang Stif which then leads me to not joining any ministry or going to church; which will never lead me back to Him.
Everything just fell into place, and that’s how awesome God is. I give out everything to Him, I lift up my plans, my dreams, my goals, everything. I mean, why should I keep on planning trying to make my life right, when there’s Someone out there who plans better and gives you the best? His plans are good and perfect. I leave everything in His hands. And I pray that one day, God will reveal to me what my purpose really is – like how can I really be of service to Him, to His works..
.. which leads me to my top 3 spiritual gifts (according to spiritual gift inventory test) – exhortation, apostleship and faith.
The first ten minutes after I took the test and saw my result, I was puzzled. I said to myself, “I don’t encourage people. I don’t have dreams to be a missionary. But I have a big faith.” Later that night, I still kept on thinking of moments wherein the two (exhortation and apostleship) were practiced.
And then I remembered my dreams. You know, I keep on dreaming about different places, not the tribal-ish ones, but places abroad where there were snow and high mountains with blue seas. I don’t know if that was part of my desire to be sent onshore in my work, but I also had this desire in college to serve God someplace else. My second cousin is in South Korea for mission works. She’s a nurse and after she passed the board, she allotted a year of her life to give back every honor He deserves by being of use to Him. Just before graduation, I was thinking of the same thing. I really have this desire or willingness to be of great use for His glory. I am not a singer, nor a dancer and ever since highschool, I was looking for ways to serve Him and being a missionary was a good idea. So maybe apostleship is indeed one of my spiritual gift. Maybe if one day God truly reveals to me that He needs me to go to some place, maybe that’s the time I’d jump out and not think of how great my mom will worry about me. After all, it will be a calling and you can’t turn back away to His plans, think about Jonah. For now, what I shall do is learn His words, meditate on it and grow in spirit. Then, maybe, just maybe, I might get sent somewhere and teach the Gospel. 🙂